08.29.08

Read this?

Posted in fiction (2) at 11:15 am by Wanyu

The Story of an Hour

Kate Chopin (1894)

Knowing that Mrs. Mallard was afflicted with a heart trouble, great care was taken to break to her as gently as possible the news of her husband’s death.

It was her sister Josephine who told her, in broken sentences; veiled hints that revealed in half concealing. Her husband’s friend Richards was there, too, near her. It was he who had been in the newspaper office when intelligence of the railroad disaster was received, with Brently Mallard’s name leading the list of ‘killed’. He had only taken the time to assure himself of its truth by a second telegram, and had hastened to forestall any less careful, less tender friend in bearing the sad message.

She did not hear the story as many women have heard the same, with a paralyzed inability to accept its significance. She wept at once, with sudden, wild abandonment, in her sister’s arms. When the storm of grief had spent itself she went away to her room alone. She would have no one follow her.

There stood, facing the open window, a comfortable, roomy armchair. Into this she sank, pressed down by a physical exhaustion that haunted her body and seemed to reach into her soul.

She could see in the open square before her house the tops of trees that were all aquiver with the new spring life. The delicious breath of rain was in the air. In the street below a peddler was crying his wares. The notes of a distant song which some one was singing reached her faintly, and countless sparrows were twittering in the eaves.

There were patches of blue sky showing here and there through the clouds that had met and piled one above the other in the west facing her window.

She sat with her head thrown back upon the cushion of the chair, quite motionless, except when a sob came up into her throat and shook her, as a child who has cried itself to sleep continues to sob in its dreams.

She was young, with a fair, calm face, whose lines bespoke repression and even a certain strength. But now there was a dull stare in her eyes, whose gaze was fixed away off yonder on one of those patches of blue sky. It was not a glance of reflection, but rather indicated a suspension of intelligent thought.

There was something coming to her and she was waiting for it, fearfully. What was it? She did not know; it was too subtle and elusive to name. But she felt it, creeping out of the sky, reaching toward her through the sounds, the scents, the color that filled the air.

Now her bosom rose and fell tumultuously. She was beginning to recognize this thing that was approaching to possess her, and she was striving to beat it back with her will–as powerless as her two white slender hands would have been. When she abandoned herself a little whispered word escaped her slightly parted lips. She said it over and over under hte breath: ‘free, free, free!‘ The vacant stare and the look of terror that had followed it went from her eyes. They stayed keen and bright. Her pulses beat fast, and the coursing blood warmed and relaxed every inch of her body.

She did not stop to ask if it were or were not a monstrous joy that held her. A clear and exalted perception enabled her to dismiss the suggestion as trivial. She knew that she would weep again when she saw the kind, tender hands folded in death; the face that had never looked save with love upon her, fixed and gray and dead. But she saw beyond that bitter moment a long procession of years to come that would belong to her absolutely. And she opened and spread her arms out to them in welcome.

There would be no one to live for during those coming years; she would live for herself. There would be no powerful will bending hers in that blind persistence with which men and women believe they ahve a right to impose a private will upon a fellow-creature. A kind intention or a cruel intention made the act seem no less a crime as she looked upon it in that brief moment of illumination.

And yet she had loved him–sometimes. Often she had not. What did it matter! What could love, the unsolved mystery, count for in the face of this possession of self-assertion which she suddenly recognized as the strongest impulse of her being!

“Free! Body and soul free!” she kept whispering.

Josephine was kneeling before the closed door with her lips to the keyhold, imploring for admission. “Louise, open the door! I beg; open the door–you will make yourself ill. What are you doing, Louise? For heaven’s sake open the door.”

“Go away. I am not making myself ill.” No; she was drinking in a very elixir of life through that open window.

Her fancy was running riot along those days ahead of her. Spring days, and summer days, and all sorts of days that would be her own. She breathed a quick prayer that life might be long. It was only yesterday she had thought with a shudder that life might be long.

She arose at length and opened the door to her sister’s importunities. There was a feverish triumph in her eyes, and she carried herself unwittingly like a goddess of Victory. She clasped her sister’s waist, and together they descended the stairs. Richards stood waiting for them at the bottom.

Some one was opening the front door with a latchkey. It was Brently Mallard who entered, a little travel-stained, composedly carrying his grip-sack and umbrella. He had been far from the scene of the accident, and did not even know there had been one. He stood amazed at Josephine’s piercing cry; at Richards’ quick motion to screen him from the view of his wife.

When the doctors came they said she had died of heart disease–of the joy that kills.

Almost the end

Posted in English conversation (2) at 1:06 am by Wanyu

Because I have been overloaded with quite a lot of work, a part of me is really looking forward to a break, but after today’s class (and last Saturday’s) I now feel I don’t want this term to end…

08.28.08

WATCH the story, All Summer In a Day

Posted in fiction (2) at 10:19 am by Wanyu

Did you know you could watch the film adaptation of the short story we read in class?

Check it out!

Click me.

08.23.08

閱讀的難度

Posted in fiction (2) at 12:00 am by Wanyu

小說班的同學在唸之前幾個故事的時候抱怨好難好多生字看不懂… 我也覺得很難…其實..

那時候我就想寫些關於閱讀的反思….

檢討一下, 自己是不是變成只能讀懂快速取得的簡易資訊呢? 在這樣樣講求速度的社會, 我們是不是早已失去耐心? 對於無法即刻看懂的文章不屑一顧?

其實究竟是不懂內容還是根本就已經不習慣需要細嚼慢嚥才能體會的文字?

08.22.08

my new course

Posted in writing academic English at 11:04 pm by Wanyu

I’m not exaggerating–the past three weeks have been hectic to me. Fortunately, all my students have been excellent and supportive (THANK YOU EVERYONE!!). I wish I could devote most of my time to teaching, yet it’s just not realistic to say that.

Anyway. So, that also explains why I haven’t been able to keep this website updated as often as I would have wished.

What’s new then. Hmm. I’ve been doing some research on teaching academic English. This is different from teaching my other classes because for this I have to explain much more in class about some rules, and besides this could be a little dry too for students because after all it’s serious stuff they’re gonna be writing.

I will make it fun. Fun things can be learned faster. ;)

08.10.08

Sing a sad song and turn it around…

Posted in English conversation (2) at 9:15 pm by Wanyu

Kevin introduced this song to me (and everyone) in class:

Bad Day by Daniel Powter

watch

I was slightly upset and went pensive… I went out to some shops and in one of them the staff there happened to be listening to this very song!

I didn’t buy anything, but I walked home in a better mood.

Music brings delights. Thanks to Kevin, and Powter. :)